Saturday, December 31, 2011

Transplant

So as we know, my brother David and his wife Summer have had an interesting 9 months of marriage. As part of the decrease in Dave's health due to Cystic Fibrosis, they have spent their first Thanksgiving and Christmas together as a married couple in the hospital. 

Since David was missing so much work, he got laid off right after Thanksgiving and since that time, they have gotten almost $10,000 in medical bills that isn't covered by their insurance, with many more to come once the lungs come in. Luckily they have insurance but will still have lots of out of pocket charges with the medicines and supplies that he will be needing now and after the transplant, that insurance will not cover. 

We've created a Facebook page to show our love and support for David and Summer. Even if you don't know them, but you know someone in our family, please join this page to show them how much support they have. 

This group is called "Dave Needs a Lung Transplant" 

Also, Summer has set up a PayPal account so that anyone who is able to help in any small way can easily contribute. We understand that this is a difficult time for many people with the economy, but every little bit helps relieve the financial burden they feel. Thank you so much for all of the prayers and support that you have given us. 
They have led to miracles! 


Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Back to utardia

This new blog set up is throwin' off my groove. 
I don't know how to check anything and haven't had the time or energy to really look into it. 

Good news though. 
I haven't had a break down for 4 days. 
I deserve a gold star. 
AND....I slept THE WHOLE night last night. 
I didn't even use Tylenol PM!!!!
But, the end is in sight. Dave is almost done with the lung tests so he is almost officially on the list. (HOPEFULLY)
His lungs have stayed inflated for almost a whole week now!! 
His heart is freakin out a bit, but no permanent damage. 

So overall great news. 
We are going there tomorrow to help Dave and his wife move and to just be there for Dave. 
Its hard to see him suffer, but today is the first day in a long time things have really looked up and Dave has been chipper about things. 

But, I just wanted to quickly say thank you SO much for all the prayers. 
David and Summer feel them. 
My family feels them. 
and I feel them. 

Prayer works. 

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Oh, you know.

*****DISCLAIMER: I REALLY DO LOVE LIFE*****
I have never felt so comforted one moment and so alone the next.
The words from a song by Taylor Swift I think comes to mind...
"I feel alone in a crowded room..."

I have felt that way over the last couple weeks.
Lately I feel as if I am alone, caught up in my own thoughts, no matter how many people I am around.
I feel like I'm not standing up as straight because I have a burden on my shoulders.
I feel like a bipolar mess where one moment I feel peace and am truly happy and then the next I'm crying because someone asked me about how David is doing.

My boss has gotten the brunt of my emotions outside of my mom.
Bless his heart. He really is so good. And so kind.
It's really nice to have an LDS boss sometimes. This is one of those times.

There have been SO many tender mercies throughout this whole thing.
David lost his job: We have a ton of family that are so willing to take them in.
David's lung collapsed again a couple days ago: This will hopefully move him up on the transplant list.
David lives in Utah, not even an hour away from one of the best CF clinics in the nation.
David has the most amazing wife he could ever ask for.
David, and me, and our whole family have strong testimonies of the restored gospel.
And of the Living Christ.

I came home for lunch today and the only thing I could do was walk in the front door and start crying.
Two hours of sleep, and many hours of laying in bed worrying about your brother doesn't make the craziest day of work you have EVER had any easier.
And it doesn't make those crazy, uncontrollable girly emotions any easier to control.

I have thought about how it was that my family has been blessed with this trial.
Sometimes I wish I could put into words exactly how I feel, not to have a wo is me moment, but to just get it out and be able to move on.
I have found that it is very therapeutic to talk about it, but its hard too.
With my dad as stake president, I feel a little pressure to come across as happy and care free as possible. Not that they can't know that I'm struggling, but I want them to know that even amidst the struggles, I really do have such a great life. I realize that there are a lot more people and a lot more families this Christmas season who are less fortunate then my family is.

I know it will all work out.
I just don't know how.
What does it mean this time that "The Lord's in charge?"
What is His plan.
Sometimes I just wish I knew.
So I could prepare for the worst or plan for the best.
But, that would take away so many of the lessons that I've already learned the past two weeks.

For instance....
I'm learning what it means to Really feel of the Atonement.
I hope I am understanding it right.
It doesn't make the trial, the emotions, or the unanswered questions go away.
But it makes them a lot easier to bear.
It makes the weight of the burden feel a little bit lighter.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Believe it or not, this is a VERY short version.

So I got the OK to post about this on my blog, since it has made its way to the Facebook world.
This last week has been....well.....a duesy.

I have a brother with Cystic Fibrosis. (as I have mentioned before)
He was recently in the hospital for three weeks.
Out for 6 days.
And BAM.
Monday we get a call from his wife that he was once again admitted into the hospital for another collapsed lung. This is his 4th one since he got married.
Like not even a year ago.

So. The disease continues to progress.
David has met with Doctors at the University of Utah hospital to see what they are thinking about doing.
He has begun the process of being put on a lung transplant list.
The next week will be a week of huge tests and decisions.
He will have to get everything tested.
Heart. Kidney. Liver. Everything. They want to make sure that he has the best chance of survival for this surgery.

There is a 20% mortality rate the first year after surgery.
50% of people after 5 years survive, which is much much better then what he was given this week if he didn't get this process started.
Once everything is rolling and he is officially on the list for lung transplants, he will pretty much be given a pager and sent home. Two to three times a week he will go up to the University of Utah to get blood work done until a set of lungs comes in for him. When the lungs come in, his pager will go off and he will go up to the U of U and surgery will be underway.

If all goes according to plans, he should have a new set of lungs within 4 to 6 months.
It is hard to put all of the information together in a way that is understandable.
But, long story short, CF has begun to really rear its ugly head for Dave and our family.
CF is something that growing up I looked at as the disease that made Dave cough a lot, throw up in the pool, and take a bunch of medicines.
If only thats ALL it was.
The real, intense facts of this disease are coming to life for our family this week.
CF is a disease that is threatening to take Dave's life.
But, Dave is doing well.
He's positive and is so full of faith.

This week has been full of tears and emotional breakdowns,
It's scary, and lots of questions remain unanswered, and there are so many unknowns.
But we have tried to stay faithful and know that the Lord is in charge.
Its hard, and I know there will be emotional days, and more tears ahead, but there's something I've learned and I hope I can remember.....

Expect Miracles.
And if the things we want to have happen don't,
The Lord's in charge.
He's formulated a perfect plan and it's all in his hands.
Thanks Heavens.



Thursday, December 8, 2011

The PERFECT Christmas Bonus....

On wednesday after work, my boss pulled us aside.
This isn't an abnormal thing, this happens quite often in fact.

But this day was different.
This day we received Christmas Bonuses.
Unfortunately, my first thought was "YES!! I was hoping this would come!!!"

But then he said that this bonus came with strings attached,
This bonus was going to be a little bit different.
And it turns out that this was the best Christmas bonus I could've ever received.

My boss handed each of us five $20 gift cards to Walmart to give away to someone who needed them more then we did.
My heart was immediately softened and I was filled with compassion.
My next thought was "Anybody can use this more then me, I am so blessed. Not everyone has a job right now, and not everyone is as fortunate as I am"

I went home that night, and was a little emotional on the way home as I was thinking about how blessed I was and how fortunate I am at this time in my life.
That night as I prayed, I prayed that I would know who to give them to, a few people who would be EXTRA grateful for them.

Today, I was sitting in Carl's Jr., eating the BEST chicken sandwich I've ever had, when someone walked in and all he could afford was a small salad and a water. He had on torn clothes on a chilly day and you could tell in many ways that he hadn't showered for weeks.
I was overtaken by the strong BO scent that came as he sat down 3 tables away.
But the only thought that came was, "Give him a card"

I was walking over to his table, when he broke out in cuss words, and I could tell he wasn't mentally all there. And I made a decision I really regret.
I changed my path and went to refill my drink instead.
I got nervous about how he would respond.
Would he get mad that I thought he came across as someone who needed help?
Would he cuss at me because he didn't understand?

I let my weak sauce self get the best of me.
REALLY LINDS??????

I got in the car and really kicked myself for not following through on what I saw then as a very clear answer to prayer.
I mean, I talked to people who 18 months who I didn't know, and who were homeless, and I got cussed out more times then I can count. What stopped me today!?!?!
I couldn't believe I had done that. I was SO disappointed in myself.
I went back to work discouraged that I had let the "natural man" get the best of me.

But, at that moment, I made a promise though to myself and the Lord.
I will give those cards to 5 people who need them.
I won't ignore any more promptings the Lord is anxious and willing to bless me with.
I don't care how they look or what they are saying.

Today made me realize though how powerful the real meaning of Christmas is. Its about giving.
Its about the Savior.
Its about His birth which was such an amazing miracle.
Its about knowing who our "neighbor" is, and taking care of them.
Its about everything EXCEPT ourselves.

Today I have felt the spirit so strong.
I hope the Lord will trust me with more people in my path, so that I can help them in a little way.
It may be $20 to them.
But to me, it is the BEST Christmas bonus I've EVER received.



Saturday, December 3, 2011

Ooooohhhhh....that's RIIIIIIIIIIIGGGHHHTT.

Remember how like a month ago I was all excited to announce that I was going to start doing a "Random Saturday" Post.
And remember how I haven't done one since????

Thought so.
But lets be real, that means that I was doing something productive and not sitting in front of my computer right?

But let's be real, today, you will get the ultimate RANDOM post from me.

Thanksgiving came and went in the blink of an eye.
I worked that week monday-wednesday, and then thursday morning one of my favorite people came at 4:45 AM and picked me up to go to the airport, where I then proceeded to hop on a flight and go to Utah to meet up with my familia.

It was a blast, and then I drove home Saturday.
And got stuck in about 23458326791 hours of traffic. Super lame.

Then real life hit again and I have been a crazy fool running around trying to get stuff ready for a huge Relief Society activity I have next week, and a lesson I am teaching tomorrow.

Today I turned to my mom, and I said, "Really???? Why do I have to be such an over achiever?? Why can't I be okay with a handout not backed in some super cute paper? Or a table cloth that doesn't match whats on it?"
Yeah. That won't ever happen.
So I decided to finally embrace my OCD-ness.

I also still work like crazy. Work is good, no real complaints.
Part of me is starting to be in complete freak out mode because I feel like I don't know what I want to do with my life, or where I want to go, or what I want to be when I grow up.
I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE my job, don't get me wrong, but my goal isn't to be a huge money-making fool who works 50+ hours a week.
My goal is to be a mom of a bunch of crazy little boys, and a wife to the most handsome man ever.
And lets be real, unless someone moves in, thats not happening in Fresno.
So for Now I feel ok being here, but eventually I may get a little ancy.

Well, there is my random ramblings on my random life.
After Wednesday I will have about 10 more hours in the day to do something fun.

Like my goal for the week?
Start working out again.
I am not going to let myself use the excuse that "its just so dark when I get off work, and I'm tired."
Lindz - get with it, thats when you REALLY need to go.

Ok. Thats all for my ramblings.

Oh, not really.
You wanna read an AMAZING talk??
Read "Your happily ever after" by President Uchtdorf.
A. MAZE. ING.

Do it. I dare you.




Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Then and Now.

When I was growing up, every Saturday morning was WORKIN' day.
We mowed the grass, pulled weeds, swept, and washed cars.
We cleaned the bathroom, and vacuumed the house.

And most of the time, we enjoyed it.
We bonded, we talked, and we learned.
Dad taught us how to do things outside, while mom taught us how to
keep the inside of the house nice and tidy.

While we learned the little tricks of taking care of things, we were learning a much more important lesson, and thats the importance of knowing how to really WORK.

I've been thinking a lot about WORK lately, and how everything that is worth anything in life requires WORK. I've become so grateful lately for the opportunity my parents
gave me to WORK and for the chances that they took to teach us the importance of WORK.

I mean think about it:
I go to WORK everyday, so I can put my college degree to use
I had to WORK to get that degree
I had to WORK hard for success on the mission, and I got it....a lot of it.
We have to WORK to keep our testimonies.
WORK is required to keep our relationships strong.
We saw the Lord WORK every day of His life, and He is the perfect example.
As we forget ourselves and go to WORK, thats when we are truly happy.
There's nothing that is more rewarding than hard WORK.
The Lord wants to teach us how to WORK, so He gives us callings.
It requires WORK to get through hard trails, and difficult moments in life.
Sometimes it even takes WORK to recognize tender mercies and miracles.
Its fun to WORK.
WORK brings many blessings into our lives.
I know in the future it will be a lot of WORK to raise my kids in the way I desire.
I believe that true, sincere, heartfelt prayer is a form of WORK.

I could go on and on about WORK, but I will stop there.
I just appreciate my parents so much for teaching me how to WORK back then,
So that my life can be benefitted now by the blessings of daily WORK.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Just like the other 10000 bloggers....

Just like the other 10,000 blogs that I've read, I thought I would take a minute and
blog about some of the things I am grateful for.

-My family
-That I know I am a child of God
-My testimony of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ
-My job
-My health
-Modern Medicine
-My calling in church
-The knowledge I have that Heavenly Father is aware of me
-I have the best friends ever
-The beautiful weather here in Fresno
-My education
-Inspired church leaders
-The priesthood
-I never have to worry about having enough of anything
-My parents taught me how to work
-Missionary work
-Daily tender mercies
-Answers to prayers
-The scriptures

My list could go on and on.
Even though sometimes it is hard to remember the blessings that we have, especially when things get tough, I am truly blessed. I am abundantly blessed, and I couldn't ask for much more. I have realized recently how quickly the Lord comes to our rescue and how anxious he is to bless us. He knows us personally. He lives. He is real.
That knowledge alone is enough for me to feel very blessed.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Paul

The other day at work a man named Paul came in.
Only let me explain Paul.
He had huge hands
and a very deep voice.
He was wearing a floral dress
and a bright pink blouse
He had painted fingernails
long hair
make up
and extremely girly flip flops.

Yes. You read it right. HIS name was PAUL.

So the doctor walks in.
He says, "You are Paul right."
Deep voice: "Yes"
Dr: "Ok, just wanted to make sure"
Deep voice: "Yes but by the end of the year my legal name will be Paula"
Dr: "Good thing, because this is really confusing me right now"

Umm hi.......you don't say that.
And you definitely don't follow it up with this:
"Lindsay, if you were to change to a man, would your man name be Larry"
Jaw dropping hilariousness.
Thats my job.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Random Saturday

I follow a super cute blog and very Friday they do a Random Friday and she just kind of talks about everything thats happened since her last post.

I decided, for the two of you that read this, that I would do a random Saturday since thats usually the only day I have time to blog these days.

So, in a nut shell, this is what I've been up to:
-Work work work. I just put in a time off request and I actually felt a little bit bad, but its not till March, so by then I will need a little break.
-Church: I just got put into the Relief Society Presidency as second counselor and so that is keeping me REALLY busy!! But its fun! I also have been helping out with the youth musical and the performances are tonight!! I can't wait to see it all come together
-Dating: a really cute guy, and its goin well :)
-Taking random road trips and scheduling random road trips for the future. There are two more I gotta nail down then I am good to go (Arizona for the Henderson's and Illinois for mission peeps!
-Snuggling with my cousins new little babe. who is ADORABLE.
-Pinterest. Enough said.
-Figuring out how to use my new MacBook Pro

So long story short, I am staying busy, and I am getting my creative juices flowing!! Just you wait!! :)
(Pictures to come...if I ever get around to making things and not just thinking about them!!)



Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Don't read if you are squeamish....

So today at work I might have had the grossest experience of my life.
No Joke. I don't think I will ever be this grossed out ever again.

So Tuesday mornings are surgery mornings. And today an older gentlemen came in and he had major diabetes, like should've had both of his legs amputated a LONG time ago. He had no feeling in them and he couldn't even bend one of them. Well, because of that his hygiene was.....far less then satisfactory. Yeah..thats what we will say.

Well, his toes were all bent together and folded over each other and his ankles/feet looked like little bowling balls. He couldn't even put his shoes on. Sick. His legs were bleeding through his shorts. There was stuff growing between his toes and it was green and black. Well at first I was trying to be nice and was thinking, man this poor guy must be so miserable. I was trying not to gag due to the lovely smell, but I was holding it together.

Then...he popped the question.
yes. THE question.

"Will you put my shoes on?"
Woof.

So I mustered all the courage I could and I started putting his shoes on, praying and pleading inside to NOT come into direct contact with his feet.

I was blocking a lot of it out until he said,
"Oh, and you will probably want to wash your hands when you are done."
I think I threw up a little in my mouth.

So I make it through one shoe and he says, "Thats good, thats just my bad foot"

Gangrene.
Staff.
and a bunch of other communicable diseases went through my mind.

Then we had to transfer him from his wheelchair to a regular chair.
Then we had to go sanitize. Lots.

Today, I've washed my hands, more like my arms from my elbows down, more then I ever have in my life, and hand sanitizer has become my new best friend.

It was so gross, I almost put in my two weeks notice.
(just kidding)


Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hands

Call me wierd, but I've been thinking a lot lately about the power of our hands.

In the last couple of weeks I've seen the impact that our hands can have in helping/hurting the lives of others.

I've seen simple things like someone flip me off because I stopped at a yellow light just before it turned instead of going through like he was planning on. And then serious things like seeing a young 5 year old boy come in to the eye doctor absolutely terrified of me and all strangers because he had been abused by the hands of his father. I've never felt so sick and saddened by anything so fast in my life as I did when that little boy came in and his mom and step father told me what was wrong.

Then I've seen things like a 96 year old woman in tears because the hands of a skilled surgeon helped her to once again see the world clearly. I've seen a young woman who struggles with down syndrome comforted by holding the hands of her loving twin sister during a painful office procedure at the doctors office. I've seen a daughter loving serve her mother by holding her around her waist so that she wouldn't fall when she walked.

These experiences have helped me understand a little bit better the lyrics of the song "His Hands". How the Savior exemplified perfectly how powerful our hands can be. They can demean, hurt, and destroy confidence and trust in others. Or they can build, strengthen, touch, and uplift those around us.

I hope that I can always be someone who builds and uses my hands in a way to bless the lives of those around me. I hope I can better exemplify the Savior in the little things I choose to do with my hands.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Sunday, September 4, 2011

My Favorite Things

So lately I've discovered all kinds of new things, and remembered all kinds of things that I forgot about over time. You know those things that make your day so much more pleasant/make you go broke.....yeah. You know what I'm talking about.

This post is now going to be called "My Favorite Things" Post, like Oprah's favorite things, only this time, there won't be any giveaways, everything you see will be under $100 bucks, and they are simple pleasures in life. So really, not at all like Oprah.

1. This haircut. I LOVE this haircut. I saw it and absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE it. I'm really nervous about touching my hair right now because its finally SO long, so most of the time I just look at this picture and think, maybe one day I will have this cute haircut! :)

2. RYKA shoes. Oh. My. Gosh. Talk about the most comfortable work out shoes EVER. I absolutely LOVE Ryka's. They do something I never thought any shoe would do, they make me want to go workout. They make the shred ENJOYABLE!!! They are super light weight with great support and I LOVE them.
Sorry New Balance and Adidas, you have been replaced.
Love,
the girl who USED to keep you guys in business with her shoe obsession.

3. So for those of you who don't like "diet" drinks. This drink is AWESOME. This is one of the only non-diet drinks I like. It is amazing. Like makes the 105+ days seem totally conquerable. I don't know if it has reached the level of DDP or DVC, but its close. And its new, so I might as well make it sound EXTRA good.

4. I love fall, because I absolutely LOVE cardigans. Target has quite the array of cute cardigans right now, along with Penneys, and Eddie Bauer. Cardigans are like my feel-good clothes.
Come faster fall, I need to break more of these out!!

5. Charming. Charlie. Enough said. It is a store of complete happiness. AND it is perfect for anybody who is slightly OCD about being organized! (100% guilty) It is colorcoded, and fun, and cute and CHEAP (unless you get like 10 things every time you go....guilty again) and things for every occasion. Go. I dare you.

6. Melaleuca Chapstick. I may or may not have just melted mine in the hot car this week, which super sucks because this lovely puts Burts Bees to SHAME. yes. I said it. It does.

7. Melaleuca low-fat, crave blocking protein shakes. Yes. Chocolate, Vanilla and Strawberry.
best meal ever.

8. I bought a bag of these at Costco a few weeks ago. Sister Parker had them in church and I was immediately hooked. I bought a bag thinking, ok, its dark chocolate, so I will be totally satisfied by just having 4 or 5 little pieces a day. That can be my sweet fix and I will be good. WRONG. I won't tell you how fast I finished the bag. Absolutely Amazing. Now Costco will be seeing MUCH more of me. I justify because its dark chocolate, bad justification I know. I haven't bought another bag yet, I'm trying to exercise more self control!!!! :)
Welp....these are a few of my favorite things. I could add more to the list, but lets be real, no one probably even read this whole thing!! :) But until next time, try these things out. You WONT be disappointed.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

This is my blog.

This is my blog, so I'm just going to be honest about something, something I don't talk openly about very often.....

I hate CF....like hate it with a passion. 99.9% of the time I do really well and I don't worry about Dave hardly ever. But right now I hate it. This is his second time in the hospital this year, both times because of a collapsed lung. His lungs are functioning at 16%, and yet not one complaint.

He has an amazing wife now who is a total trooper and is perfect for him. But I feel for her too. She is so faithful and so good.

There are a lot of unknowns, they can't do surgery at 16% lung function yet he is due for surgery this time around as part of his tune-up, and its the unknowns with last-minute hospital stays that just sometimes get me emotional in those quiet moments when I can't help but think about it.

But, the Lord's in charge. I need to just trust in Him. His plans never fail. Thank heavens for that.

Love your Dave and Summer! Wish I could be there now! One day this world will be CF free, and that will be the best. day. ever.




Saturday, August 13, 2011

Reading

I love reading lately. I just re-read hunger games and LOVED it even more than the first time through, and that's saying something. Well, I have a whole list of books I am wanting to read right now.

Watership Down
The Little Giant of Aberdeen County
Peachtree Road
Unbroken
The Help
Young Woman and the Sea
Bossypants
The Girl who played with Fire
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
Still Alice
Saving Cee-Cee Honeycutt
The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society
The Secret Life of Bees


Long list I know, but I love reading, and other than 2 or 3 that were around a 3.97, all these books have been rated over a 4 on goodreads.com. That says something about how good they are.

I just started Young Woman and The Sea and I love love love it. You should read it. Pronto.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

JUST what the doctor ordered!

So, I've been a working fool lately, working 8-5 plus some (code: a lot)
I met a guy, talked to this guy a LOT, really liked this guy, split a plane ticket to go see this guy, realized this guy was just like every other guy, and cancelled my flight.
I needed a getaway. BADLY.

And that's exactly what I got. Thank you Howells, Stokers, and of course my wonderful fam for a GREAT weekend! Its exactly what the doctor ordered!




Monday, July 25, 2011

Friday, July 22, 2011

M.I.A.


I've been completely MIA as of late. But only because I've been a working fool and when I get home at night I'm completely exhausted!

I've been doing things that have to do with:


And I have been loving it. It makes it fun too when patients are crazy and make you laugh. And you get paid pretty decent. And you are on your way to buying a mac. Don't have time to update a ton now....but life is good.

Monday, July 11, 2011

motherhood

I am so excited to be a mother! we had a lesson in Relief Society on family relationships and for part of that we talked about motherhood. I can't wait to be a mom!!!

I know its going to be a lot of work, and its going to test my patience, and I'm going to fail at some things at first, but I can't wait. Sometimes I've been tempted to put marriage on hold just until I finish the next thing on my list, but I've always always wanted to be a mother, that has never changed.

Little Beck that I've talked about before has been the reason why! Ever since I can remember I wanted to be a mom, but being able to see him just about everyday of his life until I graduated 3 months ago was just such a tender mercy. He taught me so much, just like my own kids will. He was so quick to be excited about all the little creations and cool flowers and birds and whatever else and taught me to recognize more fully everything the Lord has given me. Its amazing how a little two year old boy could help me feel the love of God more.

I see moms all the time on facebook complaining about their kids, not just on a rough day, because I know rough days will come, and I know I won't be complaint free, but like a couple days a week. And their comments make me want to ask, "Do you enjoy being a mom at all? Because it sure doesn't sound like it!" Who cares if someone wakes someone else up at 7:30 when they normally get up at 8! Who cares if your daughter has her shoes on the wrong feet and doesn't want to switch them! I know all you moms are like, "Just wait till you are a mom!" And I will, I'm sure I'll eat my words in some areas...but I am SO excited for the day that the Lord chooses to bless me with a husband, but ESPECIALLY with children.

I. Can't. Wait. <3

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Satan invented Cataracts....

I had an epiphany this week, and that was that Satan invented cataracts.

Let me tell you how this came about. I was screening a patient who had just had cataract surgery the day before and and she sat down and she said, "I didn't realize how foggy my vision had become, until Dr. Fogg took the cataract out. Now I can see the world so much clearer then I ever remembered it being."

A cataract is the hardening of the lens in your eye and it makes colors become less vibrant and makes everything dull and foggy. A lot of times cataracts develop so slowly people don't realize how much their vision has gone because it was such a slow process.

So, I thought about what this patient said all week, and I've decided that Satan invented cataracts. He doesn't just completely blind us spiritually in one blow, but he slowly blurs our vision, he slowly makes the Lord's plan a little bit foggy so that we lose sight of whats important and we can't fully see the path any longer. Sometimes he is so subtle and he blurs our vision so slowly, that we don't even realize that our vision is changing at all.He gives us little temptations to start with and from there it snowballs into something much bigger and much more destructive if we aren't careful.

I think at times in our lives we all have spiritual cataracts that we need to take care of. Thank heavens for the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the power of Repentance. Luckily though, unlike physical cataracts, spiritual ones can be completely avoided. It is really our choice if we choose to give in to those spiritual "risk factors" and slack off on the most important things.

I've seen this since I have graduated college more than ever before. For me, its been the spiritual cataract of pessimism. I've had a really hard time going to the YSA ward that I live in. And I've had a really hard time seeing the people and the situation there in a positive light. Its a TINY ward and its just so different then what I am used to at BYU-Idaho. My attitude in the ward has been that you could probably make a singles ward 3 out of it, which I still stand by but find more humor it in now! :) But today I was gently reminded of how close the Lord is to the people in that ward, and I was reminded of how much the Lord not just loves them, but loves and knows me. I was shown so clearly how the path that I've walked up to this point in life has put me here for a reason, and I'm not just in Fresno by chance. I've tried to put my desires on hold and figure out what the Lord wants.

Life can be crazy sometimes, but I am so grateful for the crazy parts of it and know that it will all work out.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

2 Weeks...

I've learned a lot the past two weeks, and these a CRUCIAL life-changing lessons! :)

I could live FOREVER in Sacramento. I love it.
I HATE mango
I absolutely LOVE the TV show 101 ways to leave a game show: HILARIOUS! almost better then wipeout, but not quite. VERY close second. (ellen is currently doing repeats)
I love riding bikes, especially in Yosemite.
People are genuinely very good.
I see tender mercies every single day.

Life is good.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

now i know why......

Now I know why people become workaholics. Because they love their jobs.

I just got a new job, and I absolutely LOVE it!!!! Like for real. I'm super stressed but I feel so blessed and so grateful, and I love love love going to work. Granted, I've only been through three days, but they have been LONG days, and days packed full of information and a little bit of stress, but I love it.

Im working in the clinic with patients, Im putting together a huge, no....a MONSTROUS health promotion program, and I am putting together training meetings for other doctors in town.

I could do this forever.

I've checked one thing off my list of post-grad plans....full time job with benefits and PTO. Check check and check.

Now on to the next thing...........

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Times are changin.

So, times are changin around here. And Miracles are happening in the Witt home.
Here is a classic example of a conversation in our home during the summer:
"Mom, Dad, we have GOT to turn on the air conditioning"
"No, we aren't going to, its too expensive, go jump in the pool"

Seriously....that conversation has probably happened 75 million times in my home. no joke, and no exaggeration.

Today I walked in from work, and the Halelujah chorus began. Dad was turning on the air. I've never been so happy, ever.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

What do ya know.....



So, I've been graduated for about two months now and I have really enjoyed being home for the most part! I've been working part time at a Doctor's office here in town. I don't know if I could find a better work place. My co-workers are just so much fun!!!! But....I've found a new job.


Perks:

-Full time

-Better pay

AND it uses my major!!!


I am stoked!!!!! I have applied for a ton of jobs and I can't wait to get going!!!

I will be working to put together a health program for those in the central valley who can't afford to get their cataracts taken care of. Its pretty detailed and a little overwhelming but I'm excited!!

Monday, June 6, 2011

My Slightly (dys)Functional Family...



Have any of you (2 people that read this, one of them being my mother) ever wondered what a day in the life of the Witt home is REALLY like?? Let me show you........

Yes. Be Jealous. This is how we REALLY roll. hahaha. We're cool. And we sing like pros, and no, my mom is not having a siezure as she takes this. Just saying.

This video followed after this hilarious conversation on the way home:
While waiting for my mom in Save Mart, my dad, me and Andrew were in the car driving in the parking lot, and he kept going the wrong way on the one way isles....so...
Lindsay: Dad, go the right way.
Dad: Why? Look at everybody else, they don't care.
Lindsay: It's an organizational thing. You are making the parking lot disorganized.
Ok, so I'm slightly OCD.....

Then...
Lindsay: What is the "Bad Donkey"?
Andrew: Its like a new restaraunt in town, i don't know if it ever was officially open though
Mom: It used to be a place that sold pot.
Me, Andrew and Dad: Crickets.......followed by an eruption of laughter.....
Mom: I meant pottery guys!!!!!!

You may have had to be there, but my family is funny. Like for reals.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

lil' triparoo.....

I have been super lucky this week because I've been able to spend the week with this cutie boy and his momma. My original plans kind of were changed up last minute, but I am so glad I got to spend the time with them that I did! :)

AND....I learned some lessons:

1. Do not try to put hot sauce on your Taco Bell soft taco while driving through the St. George Canyon surrounded by semi trucks. Enough said....
2. I don't know if anyone else from Vegas to Bakersfield knew how to use the cruise control, and therefore they go fast, and then slow and then fast and then slow, makes driving difficult at times....
3. A "quick stop" at Ashley's is never quick, and I couldn't be happier about that! I LOVE that girl!! I could've talked with her All. Day. Long.
4. If you forget something while traveling, no fear. Kathryn will have it, and she will know exactly where it is. Anyone want to learn how to coupon or be organized? Ask her.
5. If you are falling asleep in the car while driving, I have some great ideas, blast Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat, and you won't fall asleep. Promise. It's super annoying, and a little fun! :) Or, you could also put your I-pod on shuffle and try to sing as low as some of those country fools, that was fun too.
6. I can never ever get enough of Beck. He is adorable. honest. See:
Not bad...6 crucial, life changing lessons (kidding) in a week! I'd say it was super productive.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Remember This???


Remember this video??
Be Jealous, because I'm going to go play with them.....for a week.

Clean room? check.
Fill us with gas? check.
Laundry? in the process....
Get cool stuff for Beck? check.
Pack? check.
Get I-pod ready? check.

I. Cant. Wait.
Im going back to my old stompin grounds and am COMPLETELY stoked.

See ya'll in a week.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Happy Saturday!!

HAPPY SATURDAY FOLKS!!!

I'm going here today......



And I'm excited!!!

Enjoy your Saturday!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Funny People Take 2

When I worked for the housing office at BYU-Idaho, I used to joke around with my boss about how I could write a book and title it "Stupid Questions", due to the large array of questions I received each night. And just so you don't think I'm being too harsh, here is an example: A girl would call me 100% ticked and she'd say, "Lindsay!!! My roommate used my paper towels!!" Which would cause a huge fight and they would want to know what to do. My response was Christlike 99% of the time. But I really wanted to say, "Get over it!"

Well, today that book would've been added to.

Today at work:

Phone rings....
Me: "Insight Vision Center, this is Lindsay"
Man: "Hi Lindsay this is _________, and i was just wondering. I was in to see Dr. Poulsen and I have an eye disease called (dont remember), and I am always in a lot of pain. In fact, Im just going to be really bold and say that in order to lessen the pain, I smoke a lot of pot. And I'm wondering if Dr. Poulsen will write me a prescription to make it so I can legally smoke pot to get rid of the pain."
Me: "Can you please hold?"
BUST. OUT. LAUGHING. While conspiring with co-workers....
Me: "Can I get your number and I will write a note for the doctor to look at?"

Phone call wraps up, and I bring the chart with a note on it back to triage...grinning (insert: laughing) all the way.

My job is hilarious.

Friday, May 13, 2011

CraZy FuN...or somethin' like that

So, being home isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Its still kind of interesting though being home after living on my own for the last 7 years. (Saying that made me sound SUPER old, reality check) But overall good.

Let me count my blessings before I share some shower thoughts:
-I have a job.....part time, but its a job.
-My parents are hilarious. You want a good laugh, come join us for dinner, its pretty interesting, and you will laugh.
-I'm getting more opportunities to date then I've ever had in my life (yes...in Fresno. Believe it.)
-My bishopbric is phenomenal. I love them all so much already.

I have more time on my hands since I've graduated then I've had since probably 4th grade. Seriously. From 4th grade on I was in piano, I had sports, destination imagination, callings, etc, that have kept me super busy. But this extra time has helped me to reflect on kind of where I'm at...and my thoughts have frequently gone back to February 26th, 2009 at 5:00 when President Parker came to my door to release me as a full time missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. My mission seriously means everything to me. I think about it everyday.

But, let me tell you about that day...I've never heard anybody really talk about what its like being released from the mission...because it's absolutely terrible, and thats me being positive. I think the closest thing to being released from the mission is imagining yourself on a train. The train is going 100,000 mph, and you are so caught up in the train ride and the excitement, challenges and struggles that come with this journey you are on. Well, out of nowhere, the train stops, without any real warning. So, you fly out of your seat, and slam into the back of the seat in front of you, and like slowly melt down the back. Now, translation: When you get released from the mission, its like your whole sense of self-identity is lost, and you have to rediscover who the new "you" is. You've been going a million miles an hour and then you come to a complete stop. You know the day is coming but you keep putting the thoughts off because you have come to love the people and the work more than you can put into words. You are no longer referred to as the sacred title of Elder/Sister, but now you are once again Lindsay. You now have to focus on yourself, on getting a job, going to school, and trying to find "Mr. Right". It's like a whole new life that you are beginning to lead again, only now you are more refined, more spiritual, and you have more of an eternal perspective.

Now, why have I been thinking so much about that? I kind of feel like I am in a very similar situation now. Having just graduated, Im trying to figure out what the Lord expects of me now, where I am supposed to go from here, etc. I feel like I am beginning to once again lead a new life, full of new knowledge, skills, and experience. But once again, this transition hasn't come without its challenges and struggles. I went from taking 19 credits a semester, teaching seminary, playing on two basketball teams, coaching an ultimate frisbee team, and being Relief Society President, (AKA: Once again running a million miles an hour)to having a much more chill last semester, and now, just working 4 hours a day. My dad always says that I'm never completely happy unless I'm just a little stressed. I'd have to agree. I love being busy, having to run from one place to the next, and just being involved in a lot of different things. People told me when I got off the mission that the best is still to come, the transition would be easy, and life would move on. NOT!!!! Life moved on, life was still good, but the transition stunk, for a good 8 months. Then, Graduation happened, and people made it seem like even though the economy stunk, people would flock to you to hire you because you have a degree, and you graduated from the "Lord's University". Once again not the case.

Now, I don't mean to be negative, because with trials, and hard transitions come learning experiences, and testimony building tender mercies, given to us from the One who knows us perfectly, and so intimately. I'm learning once again how close He is to me, and I'm beginning to feel His love in a way I never have before. I've become so much more grateful for a Bishop who wants more than anything to help and encourage me through challenging yet crucial times of transition, and refining. I've realized once again how blessed I am to have such amazing friends in my life, who are such wonderful supports all the time. I've realized how even when we are far from perfect, the promise made in the Doctrine and Covenants rings true when the Lord tells us that "He will be on our right hand and on our left, and His angels round about us to bear us up". I am so grateful for hard times, for transitions, and for the way the Lord refines us and puts people in our path when we need them most. I am just very grateful for eternal families, wonderful parents, and a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Change stinks, but I'm grateful for it. Life is good, and the best is yet to come. And I have a Heavenly Father who loves me more than my own earthly parents...I don't know how that's possible, but I'm so grateful for that eternal truth.

*Lindsay Ann*

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Momma



I could go on and on about my mom, but I think two sentences could summarize it perfectly: If I'm ever even half the mom she is, I will be SO happy and my kids will be Lucky. I LOVE YOU!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

New little Crafty Craft.

So I saw this on a friends wall at school and fell in LOVE with them.
And I was reminded of this blog when she told me where she found it.

http://www.makeit-loveit.com/

thats where I learned how to make these:

http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?fbid=1668935530153&set=a.1497503084449.2067350.1440290705&type=1&theater

Its SUPER SUPER easy and it makes you feel super cute and crafty.
Buy some cute fabric. Buy some cute frames. Invite over a friend. And have some fun.

On makeit-loveit.com heres how you get to it:
-go to tutorials
-decorate my home series
-then go to 3D framed flowers.

These ladies are SUPER hip and have the CUTEST ideas. And if I can successfully do them, you for sure can!

I did make a few changes on mine though:
on the middle flower where you cut out all of the individual pedals, I cut out 24 instead of 12, and I backed them. The fabric I liked wasn't double sided, and so I put two pieces together in order to have the design on both sides. I also only put like 9 of the pedals on instead of the 12. I made mine bigger because I thought I would like it more and all 12 looked to crowded. I just did 3 8x10 frames that were like 3 dollars each at Target.

Anyway...super easy, and pretty quick.

Monday, May 2, 2011

What is Faith?

I've been thinking a lot lately about faith.

What is faith?

There is the common answer of being able to believe without seeing.

But I believe it goes so much deeper then that.


Faith is more than anything a principle of acting.

Faith means you continue to pray even when you aren't getting answers right away.

A good bishop once said, "Even a struggling prayer demonstrates faith"

Faith is taking that first step to change, repent, and become better...no matter what that step may be.

Faith is never giving up, no matter how hard the fight against the adversary may seem because you know who is in charge, and you want to obey him.

Faith is trusting in the Savior and his Atonement. Always.

Faith helps us remember who we really are, Children of God.


Faith is exemplified in the lives of so many people...

Nephi had the faith to "go and do"

Abinadi had the faith to continue teaching even when he knew he would die.

Alma had the faith to stand up against King Noah and go on to baptize hundreds.

The Brother of Jared had the faith that the Lord would help him have light in his vessels.

Enos had the faith to pray and access the Atonement in His life.

The 2000 Stripling warriors had the faith to go where they had never been before, becuase they knew the Lord would protect them.

Joseph Smith had the faith to say the Heavens are open, Christ lives, and the Godhead are three separate and distinct beings, and because of that, he was persecuted from the moment he walked out of the grove of trees.

The list could go on and on.


True faith is always centered on the Lord Jesus Christ, and on true principles.

True faith always leads us to act.

Having and increasing our faith will strengthen our armor so we can become more valiant servants of God.

The more faith we have, the less power Satan and his minions have.


Faith is Power. It is Protection.

It gives us Peace and Strength.


Long story short: You just gotta have faith.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I need a new job that will allow me to have money to go do something fun.

Like buy a mac or go to Illinois, or just somewhere for a few days.


I need a new adventure.

Any ideas on a new hobby I can take up?




Also, my ward is hilarious to people watch in.....they should make another singles ward movie out of it.

Yes. Its that bad.


Friday, April 22, 2011

Some People's Children.....

The other day I was at work and I was calling some patients that haven't been in to get their eyes checked for a while....this little assignment led to by far one of the funniest conversations I have ever had in my life.


dialed number....ring ring, ring ring....

Man: Hello?

Me: Hi, this is Lindsay calling from Doctor Poulsen's office and....(cut off)

Man: Dr who?

Me: Dr. Poulsen, your eye doctor

Man: Oh, over at California Eye Institute?

Me: Yes

Man: Oh *$#@, I will never go back there, ever.

Me: I'm sorry, why not?

Man: Because I hated them there, I would rather chew on tin foil, and grate my face on a cheese grater instead of coming back into that office.

(Trying not to burst out laughing)

Me: Wow, sorry to hear that sir.

Man: Don't ever *($?&#$@ call me again!

Man rudely hangs up! :)


now....why was that so funny to me? Let me tell you why.

Think about your life. Really. I've had some pretty tough times, and some rotten days, but I have NEVER, EVER, had anything happen to me that would make me

want to grate my face on a cheese grater.

I mean, really!! hahaha

that must have been a pretty rotten eye appointment......


some people's children....

Monday, April 18, 2011

Perfect Peeta

This kid is going to be the perfect Peeta. I like him...a lot. He's cute. He's sweet...he's going to be the perfect little baking fool in The Hunger Games series. Love it and I can't wait!!!!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

True feelings....

I'm very anti-PDA. I love a good hug, and I think its super cute when couples hold hands and are fun together, but I'm not someone who likes to cuddle or anything else.... So, when Heather (the wedding photographer) told us to make a funny face with Dave and Summer kissing, all of our true feelings easily came through. This is what my family is thinking: Me: Really guys? Danny: AHHH!!! Andy: You guys are absolutely disgusting My parents: YES!! We FINALLY got one of out kids married!!! This is the HAPPIEST day of our lives!!! I will post more wedding pics soon....

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Adios!! :) :) California here I come.....

Adios rexburg, Adios finals and crazy undergrad. Hello warmth and goodness. California, here I come, right back where I started from..... *Lindsay Ann*

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

They've done it again.

I love sPriNG.

However, spring in rexburg is non existent this year.

So I am thankful for these little guys:

They fool me into thinking that spring has sprung, because

peeps = easter = SPRING.

Peeps have done it again, they've stolen my heart and helped me block out the nasty weather we've been having.

2 days till I'm done with tests,

4 days till I'm hittin the road again back to Cali.


*Lindsay Ann*

Monday, April 4, 2011

The best!

I thought about all the best things I've done up here in Rexburg, and thought I would share!

Best Class taken: Epidemiology or Kinesiology...its a toss up.
Best Professor: Brother Hunt
Best Ward: 60th Ward - My first semester
Best Apartment: Brookside, hands down
Best Friends: You and I both know that whoever I put down, someone else will be offended! :) So I know who they are!
Best Job: Seminary teaching, by far!
Best Restaraunt: In rexburg, PAAAAALEASE!! but, while I was a student, The Red Iguana
Best Weekend Excursion: the wind caves in montana, Summer 2006
Best FHE activity: Summer of 2005, going to the sand dunes and backwards charades at the Garners Fall 2010
Best FHE group: Fall 2010
Best Lesson Learned: Everyone is fighting their own battles, don't be so quick to judge
Best Apartment where all roomies got along amazingly: Fall 2010 but I would add some from previous semesters too.
Best thing to leave in Rexburg: The weather.
Best extra Curricular Activity Involved in: Basketball

I could go on and on about all the bests I have had up here, but I'm kind of having a brain fart, so here are these for now.

My friend Kathryn Ririe put my feelings down perfectly in a text message conversation, I loved it.
Kathryn: So, I'm like nervous-feeling planning out the rest of this week, knowing it's your last one! :(
Me: haha, Me too!!
Kathryn: So funny and so sad! Can you imagine if you had one week to live?! This is almost just as serious, but I guess it could be worse! :)
hahaha, thank you Kathryn!!

I'm gettin nervous, and anxious, saying goodbye this time is going to really stink because it will be goodbye for an unknown amount of time!

5 Days till I am an official college graduate! YIKES.

*Lindsay Ann*

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Hilarious Video

You will laugh when you watch this! I promise you, you will! haha.

Monday, March 28, 2011

:)

12 days folks.

12 DAYS!!!


for now, off to do P90x...

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Fresno Reception

So as you know, my brother got married a couple weeks ago and last night they had their reception at our place, Fresno. My stake is full of lots of talented people and so Dave and Summer got another beautiful reception. The one in Provo was gorgeous, and I am so glad I got to go to that one. This one I just had to experience from afar! :)
Picture table:

Entry way, where the sign in book was (these pictures were all sent via text message so sorry if they are blurry!!):
Food table and the center of the room display, oh...and a beautiful mama! :)
Where the bride and groom stood to greet people!
Entry way leading to the book signing/cultural hall
The gorgeous and amazing centerpieces!! I love these!!
Another part of the entryway, leading into the reception.
Love is in the air! :)
*Lindsay Ann*