Sometimes this song perfectly describes me, like it it does right this minute.
One day I feel like I am totally recovered. And then I wake up the next day. Dang.
Someone told me today, "Why is it so hard for you? He's still alive." My first thought, "Idiot."
The fact that he is alive is one of the greatest blessings and miracles I have ever witnessed in my life.
But its draining. Waking up in hot sweats, and a nervous wreck in the middle of the night because I picture what it is was like to see him right before he went on life support.
One day he is great. The next day he isn't. Its seriously a minute by minute roller coaster, and you never know what to expect. THAT'S what is hard.
One day I feel completely emotionally stable and the next day I'm a mess. Like today. David is doing great today. So why am I a mess??? Good question.
But, this song has been tender mercy #2234594937271929994 for me. Love this song. I LOVE IT.
It brings me peace and helps me remember I'm not alone.
A beautiful heartbreak indeed. And Christ knows PERFECTLY how I feel.
So I will continue to trust in the Lord, and continue to endure.
"I used to pray He'd take it all away. But instead it became a beautiful heartbreak."
Life is a journey. And its the best life I could've ever asked for.