Thursday, April 19, 2012

Ya follow me???

I'm in a rut. 
a Big one. 
and let me tell ya....
I HATE ruts. 

It has been a long time since I was in one though. 
I guess thats good. 
Everything with Dave shook me up more then I let on in public.
Unless you consider this blog public. I pretty much am an open book here....

It has caused me to reevaluate everything going on in my life. 
Where I'm living. 
Where I'm working. 
What my goals are.
Where I see myself in 10 years. 
The qualities I want in my future husband.
Where I stand in the Lord's eyes. 

And as I have reevaluated this, I have come to the conclusion that I need a change. 
I felt very strongly that I needed to come home after I graduated. 
So I did. And the last year has been a refining year for me. 
I have changed in a lot of ways. 
Some great, and some I'm not too proud of. 
But isn't that what life is all about? 
Taking it one day at a time, working on your imperfections???

I have been so stressed out lately about where I want to be and who I want to become that I've woken up and my JAW is locked. 
What???? Awesome. 

I have been up all night the last three nights THINKING and PONDERING and WONDERING and PRAYING about where my life is going. 
And nothing. 
Nothing is coming. 
I have narrowed it down to my top three places to live/things to start pursuing. 
I guess thats progress, 
But for now, the only thing keeping me holding on is this scripture

"...I know the Lord loveth His children, nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things." 
(1 Nephi 11:17)

He loves me. He knows me. He will guide me. On HIS time frame. 

But for now.....another day goes by. 


Sunday, April 8, 2012

Another Day Goes By...

Welp, it looks like two weeks have gone by without an update. Time has been flying and I have been crazy busy.

Lets start with what you guys want to hear about: David. David just got out of the hospital after a two week stay again. He was out for a whole four weeks though, so our out of the hospital stretches are getting longer which is SO amazing. He is getting stronger and stronger as he continues to do physical therapy three times a week. We are hoping that he will be able to stay out of the hospital till the call comes this time, but who knows, every day brings a new adventure these days and we just kind of roll with it and hope for the best!! Its amazing that almost four months ago, we were all huddled around his hospital bed as he and his wife decided to put him on life support, and now he is not only alive, but doing well enough to be home, and chest tube free. I believe in miracles.

Me: I work. That is still all i do. And its fun. Its stressful and crazy, but fun. somedays though, I just don't get paid enough to do what i do. I am trying to get myself in a position where I can start school again sooner then later. I am entertaining the thought of going to nursing school, so I am going to decide soon or else I won't go.

Overall life is so so good right now. I have one brother whose health is on the up. One brother who is getting married. And one brother who has a mission call. I have two loving parents who are amazing and so full of faith. I am just one blessed girl.

I have been thinking a lot today about what we celebrate. The resurrection of our Savior. The Plan of Salvation and the Atonement and Resurrection of Jesus Christ mean so much more to me today then they did even just a few months ago. I mean think about it. It is truly a miracle that took place. And because of that miracle, we can all live again, with our families in the presence of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It is amazing when you just sit back and think about how blessed we are. I know Christ lives. I know that there is life after death. I know my family is eternal. I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints is the Lord's true church on the earth today. When I think about it, I couldn't want anything more. I am humbled by the blessings the Lord constantly bestows upon me. I am so blessed!!!!!

If you want to know more, go to mormon.org
Or ask me! :)

Life is great, and another day goes by!