Wednesday, May 30, 2012


I wish I could say I was perfect. 
That I was the best I could possibly be. 
Those of you who know me, know thats not true, HA! 

But I try
I try to be kind
I try to be compassionate
I try not to judge
I try to read my scriptures and say my prayers
I try to be better every single day.

I have had this major desire lately to not judge so much and its hard.
When someone is a punk at work I used to think something rude and judgmental
Now, I'm trying to see things from their perspective. 
Trying to take it as a learning opportunity, to see how I can learn something new. 

In every situation I am in, I am trying to be able to see it how Christ would see it if He were here.
Today a "homeless" guy came into work, and he complained about a $40 refraction fee.
And then he drove off in a brand new Escalade that didn't even have the license plates on it yet. 
This guy was crossing the street in front of me holding a sign asking for money, and he pulled out his IPhone. 
Today a coworker went crazy on me. 

Just a few of the many opportunities to judge. 
The Lord was testing me. 
In all of the situations, I feel like I approached them way better then I would've even yesterday.

Sometimes becoming better is painful.
Sometimes it requires a MAJOR change. 
But I'm ready for change. 
Even though it may seem like a little thing, I am working on it. 

I'm reading my scriptures more.
I'm trying to see people through the Lord's eyes. 

David has helped me see how fragile life can be, and I want to be prepared to meet my Maker. 
I want to be the happiest person possible every day. 
I want to be better.
I've got a ton of things to work on. 
So here's to baby steps, and improving. 

As President Gordon B. Hinckley used to say,
"Try a little harder to be a little better"

I'm taking that challenge to heart. 
I'm excited. 
And I'm more motivated then I have been in a long time to improve. 
Change is happening. 
I'm excited for this change. 

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Most inspiring song EVER

So yesterday I went to a funeral for a great man that I went to church with.

His daughter in law took this song and changed the words for her daughter to sing that was a song dedicated to her grandpa.

These were the words:

You've had a way, of living each day.
Trusting the Lord, and kneeling to pray.
Serving, sharing, reach out and caring, example you've been from the start.
Your life story, faith, hope and glory, held to the truth in your heart.

If we hold on together, forever family we will be.
Hand in hand, heart to heart, and on through time, and eternity.

We pledge to you we'll always be true.
Serving the Lord, in all that we do.
We will follow, because we all know, the promise of God is sure.
With faith in God, holding to the rod, life eternal ever more.

If we hold on together, forever family we will be.
Hand in hand, heart to heart, and on through time, and eternity.

You stayed the course, your heart is pure, God's love sure shines on you.
When life's dark, we'll look to you, you endured, we will too.

If we hold on together, forever family we will be.
Hand in hand, heart to heart, with faith and hope, and joy and on through all eternity.

One of the most powerfully written songs I've heard in a long time. Thought I'd share.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Embracing the unexpected

You know those awkward moments when you think that someone or something is totally on your side, 
and then you realize that its not?? 

Yeah. Super sucks. 

Due to some new government regulations, my job is transitioning to Electronic Medical Records. 
Its going to be nuts when we "go live" and start the new programs up in July. 
Everyone is busy being trained and going crazy on trying to learn new things about it so that it goes as smoothly as possible. Tensions are high, and thats expected I guess.

But, because of the new system, my time off request got denied for my brothers wedding. 
I can understand the need for everyone to be there and learn, but its still SUPER frustrating and disappointing to not be able to go, and to have my job threatened if I do go. 
I'm going to continue to try and work something out, prove to them that I am willing to continue working hard and learning this system better and better, and see if anything will work, but for now I won't be going to the wedding. 


My family is the most important thing to me but I have to think about the future. 
I have to think about finances, and future plans, and I can't afford to lose my job right now and not just show up to work. 

Danny and Alyssa are so awesome. 
I just called Danny and broke the news to him. 
I was devastated and I could tell he was disappointed but I was so grateful that he was so understanding. 

But I'm also really bummed because I don't get to see David and Summer. 
Last time I saw my brother and sister in law was in January.
And lets be real, that wasn't exactly the best "vacation" I've ever taken.
When I think of David, I picture him how I last saw him,
On life support. 
Not able to talk.
Not able to walk.
Not able to breathe on his own
with tubes and picc lines and IV's and catheters and all that other crap coming out of him every which way.
I need to see him.
Healthy (its all relative! (: ) 
and stronger every day.
Mentally and emotionally that would be a miracle for me. 

But I guess only time will tell.
I'm frustrated and disappointed but I know the Lord will provide.
Maybe there is something I absolutely need to be here for that has nothing to do with work.
And maybe not. 

But with emotions high,
And trying to move forth with faith,
I'm trying to just trust in his plan and see the big picture.

Everything happens for a reason right???

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

The Lord's way

We live in a world where values and morals are criticized and mocked. 
Where doing what is right often means standing alone and being ridiculed,
And doing what is wrong/popular means friends, fame, and fortune. 

As the final days are coming, we need to be more prepared for the things that are to come.
Satan is going to use all of his energy to destroy the things that matter most to the Lord. 
Namely: The family unit. 

The family is being attacked on all sides. 
We can see the ongoing battle of Gay Marriage being brought to the courts. 
Our President just today made a statement that he supports gay marriage. 
Satan is clever. And he has blurred the lines on what is right and wrong very well, and if you aren't in tune with the spirit, you may falter. 

Gay marriage is wrong in the Lord's eyes.
While I want everyone to be happy, and while I want "equality", I know that true happiness and true equality comes by living by the standards of the Lord's true church. 
By living the way the Lord would have us live. 

The Lord has made it very clear that gay marriage is wrong. 
The family unit is meant to be made up of a husband and wife, 
We've been taught very clearly time and again by the Lord's servants what He expects of us. 

For example:
 "The family is ordained of God. Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan. Children are entitled to birth within the bonds of matrimony, and to be reared by a father and a mother who honor marital vows with complete fidelity. Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful marriages and families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work, and wholesome recreational activities."
(The Family: A Proclamation to the World)

Marriage in the Lord's way is essential. 
Perfectly, and plainly said. 
As the second coming gets closer, we are being tempted more and more, and we will see how the ways of the Lord and the ways of the world continue to separate. 
We must be strong. We must be prepared. 
We must be willing to stand up for what we know is right. 
We must be fully on guard at all times. 

Ephesians 6 teaches that perfectly:
 11 Put on the whole aarmour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

 12 For we awrestle not bagainst cflesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the drulers of the edarknessof this world, against spiritual fwickedness in high places.
 13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
 14 Stand therefore, having your loins agirt about with btruth, and having on the cbreastplate of drighteousness;
 15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel ofapeace;
 16 Above all, taking the shield of afaith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery bdarts of the wicked.
 17 And take the helmet of asalvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

We may feel like we are standing alone. But the Lord will be with us. I hope that as things get more and more hairy in the last days, that I can prove that I will be worthy to stand on the Lord's side. To say and do what He would say and do if He were here. To protect the sanctity of marriage and the family even when the world says they are right. With HIS armor on, we will never go astray. With Him as our captain, we will be victorious. The world can try everything the wish to let their ways be known, but the Lord will win. 
I plan to be on His team. 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

This can always make me laugh. hahaha.

This video always makes me laugh, this was about 18 months ago!! hahaha. Enjoy.  :)

Sunday, May 6, 2012

And we wait some more.

The waiting goes on and on and on. 
But everyday is a day closer for David to breathe easy, and completely on his own. 

I've been thinking a lot lately about Organ Donation and how the word needs to be spread about registering to be one. 
So many people die every day waiting for a new organ. 
Sometimes a liver. Sometimes a heart. Kidneys. Lungs. 
But my eyes have been opened with how many people need new organs.
And how so many of us can do more to spread the word. 
We never know when our time is going to be up. 
But how awesome would it be if your time was up tomorrow, 
you could be the most precious gift to someone else, give someone else a brand new chance at life. 

Now, lets hope whoever is reading this won't have their last day tomorrow. 
But just think, a part of you could live on, and be the too through which a miracle could be worked in their life. 

Looking at it from my view point, 
the waiting is HARD. Very hard. 
You never know when another hospital visit will be needed.
Or a lung will collapse.
Or some ugly bacteria decides to raise its ugly head. 
Not that new lungs will absolutely cut every tough thing with CF out, 
But it will give David a chance to do things like go to the grocery store without oxygen.
To one day be able to run and play with his children. 
With every day that goes by, we are one day closer to the transplant. 
And for that I am very grateful. 

But its hard to be patient. 
It's hard to always have faith. 
And sometimes it still wears us down with the questions of the unknown. 

But, you can help. 
Every month 4100 people are added to transplant lists.
And every day an average of 77 transplants take place. 

We need more donors. 
A LOT more donors.
And we need more awareness to be spread. 

I know that some people are completely anti organ donation.
And thats fine, but for those of you who are willing to be an organ donor, or at least spread the word,
Take a few minutes, go to
the Donate Life website, 
Or look up donate life on Facebook and register. 
It takes literally 5 minutes TOPS. 
And post on your blog, your Facebook page, or anything else about the importance of organ donation. 

Its needed. 

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

A week in Pictures

We went to Fat Cats and played in the Arcade. He loved every bit of it! A cute little college boy even gave Beck hundreds of tokens. Beck was beside himself. 

We went to BYU-Idaho bookstore and got a new basketball. Most exciting 2 bucks I've ever spent!! 

We drew pictures. Like triangles and numbers and letters.

Right when I landed! 

We played with Buzz lightyear.

We played at the park. A lot. 

We took crazy pictures! 

We went on the swings. Beck has the highest pitch "WEEEEEEEE" that I've ever heard. Super cute! 

We bonded a lot! 

What isn't pictured: We played cards. Ate. Watched Hunger Games. Ate. Took naps. Ate. Watched modern family.
Very productive week!! :) 
.....and much needed.....

Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Im all about goals lately. This is my goal for the week. 

My vacation was wonderful, I will post pictures in my next post. 
Its too late to get them all now! 

Life is good. Life is crazy. Life is wonderful.