My last post talked about the change in bishopbrics that took place in my ward.
Well, that change took place and I wasn't having any of it.
My goal was to get in and out of church and other activities without having to talk to them, because if they talked to me I would just get emotional.
The first two sundays they were in were super rough for me.
And then last sunday happened.
Sitting in ward council I felt the absolute love that they already had for our ward.
I felt the kindness and enthusiasm for service.
No one wanted this change to happen.
And I was probably at the top of the list.
The old bishopbric changed. my. life.
And they will forever be on my list of the top 10 people who have changed my life and helped me.
But, in an uncharacteristic fashion on sunday,
I put myself in the shoes of the new bishopbric.
And I experienced almost an immediate change of heart.
I've tried to pray more earnestly for them every time I pray.
And I love them.
The feeling of the ward is way different.
There are a lot of us YSAs who are struggling with the change.
And I still would give anything to have the old bishopbric back.
My heart has been softened.
I have seen things and been able to have experiences with this new bishopbric that have helped me see already the Lord's hand in this change.
My testimony has been strengthened on the power of prayer.
The power that it can have to change your heart.
Seriously guys, I was emotional the whole week before and the whole week after the change.
While there will always be things I miss, and though there will always be a special place in my heart for the bishopbric that got released, I'm seeing the promise of our stake president come true, when he said, "Your heart will expand and your love will be able to be multiplied and not divided. You will love this new bishopbric just as you have loved the old bishopbric"
I think that love will be different because personalities are different.
But I'm trying to see things from their perspective.
They are trying to love and help 150 YSAs who are resisting their love and support.
We have to get to know 3 new people.
I could still be doing more to make it easier on the bishopbric that just got put in. And there are still days I super miss the old dynamics. And there are days I wish I could call them up as a priesthood leader and get their counsel/advice. At activities I still watch the doors hoping they will come in. And to be honest, I have still gotten emotional some.
But my heart is changing.