Wednesday, September 3, 2014


When I was teaching seminary, I had the experience of a lifetime as I sat down, across from Elder Kikuchi via video interview, and was interviewed to work full time for the Seminary and Institute program (part of CES) for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. 
I had arrived to the interview early in an effort to have a few minutes to pull myself together and relax, and the second I walked in, I was told, 

"Lindsay! Elder Kikuchi is all ready for you!" 
"Oh really? I was scheduled at 2:00 right?" 
"Yes, but things have been moved around and he's ready for you!"


So I went and I talked with Elder Kikuchi for about 25 minutes. 
It was awesome, and intimidating and great. 

And at that point, this was when my interview was supposed to be starting, and we had just ended. 
and then Elder Kikuchi asks me: 

"Lindsay, we have 30 minutes till my next appointment. I can either let you go about your day, or I can teach you the gospel." 

Me: "Oh sorry, I gotta run!" 

Of course I stayed, and listened, and soaked up everything I could possibly soak up. 

And this is what he taught me: 

He said, "Lindsay, when you are teaching the youth of Zion, you need to remember their divine worth, and you need to do two things ALL the time. You need to ALWAYS end every lesson with a powerful testimony of the Savior and His Atonement. And second, you need to gain a testimony for yourself of the role of righteous women and mothers in the gospel, and in the world today, and you need to strive to continue living up to that call."

He went on to teach me about the gospel and the heavenly call of being a woman and mother in zion. 
SO good. 

These days, the world is doing everything it can to destroy our self image, make us doubt our worth, and make us forget who we are and where true happiness comes. It is SO easy to get caught in the trap of, "I'm not good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, rich enough, etc. etc. etc." 

Believe me. I've been there, a LOT. 
More than I would like to admit.

But this week, I've been looking through old journals, and as I read and re-read my experience with Elder Kikuchi, I've been reminded of a few things. 
I have a testimony of the Savior, and His Atonement and the miracles it can work in my life. 
I have a testimony of who I can one day become with His help. 
I know, that as a woman in the gospel, I can be a major force for good in the world today. 
I know that when darkness seems to be surrounding me, there is light at the end of the tunnel, and that light is the Savior and His perfect plan.

And that knowledge makes me powerful. 
It gives me the strength to continue.
It gives me hope that all the blessings I desire will come in due time. 
It gives me peace that I'm not alone. 

And it makes me want to more faithfully live up to the person God made me to be. 
A righteous woman in Zion. 
Because I know that as I strive to live up to that calling, that I will always have God's help, and the Savior will never leave me alone. 

And that strengthens my resolve to continue. 
I'm going to start now.